House

I'm a big, very big fan of House since the first episode it came out.

I know this episode came out somewhere last 2 weeks but I don't actually have some ample leisure time to watch it.

Finally I got time to watch the season finale - not just the season, but the whole House TV show finale. What  can I conclude is: I think THIS was one of the best series finalies ever. It is pure House. The unexpected expected. He gave everything up to be with his friend at the end. It was perfect! House finally accepted the reality of his life and realized that the only way for him to live, was for him to die. His life changed forever and it was a total selfless act. His only concern was ensuring that his best friend, who took care of him all these years, enabled his addictions and rescued him for sudden destruction was going to live his last 5 months. After watching this episode, I think we all can move on now.

My tears rolled down watching this. It was so surreal with all the emotions portrayed by the characters. Can't believe I have such soft emotions.

Wilson trying to explain to House that he will stick to his decisions no matter what

House is just being a friend all along - and Wilson is responding naturally in parallel with his decision

House trying to kill himself

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I have one hour to pack my things up.

I always smile. I normally won't get influenced by any kind of emotional input - but the chain of events that happened within these few days has gotten me unstable enough to reach in an unpositive way. I've gotten to a point where I am really frustrated with all these.

But oh well, drama aside - 

Lovely car

Its been quite awhile since my last post. There's alot of things happened since my last post and this very day that I could not summarize and detail in the blog, but what I can say is - life's keeps getting better and better. Alhamdulillah. However, I would like to dedicate this post to my little car - my awesome companion since last 2 years.

Just wanted to share what I always bring in my car. I like to travel around - all around Malaysia - across states very frequently, alone. My car has been (and always be) my second home. That's why I like to stuff things that I randomly and frequently need inside my car. Today, while cleaning up my car, I decided to snap up some photos of things inside.

First of all - my boot (some call bonnet)

Those are the things I believe would be a life saver when I'm travelling. A 6-man tent and two sleeping bags. The green one comes from Giant - a cheap one. The original sleeping beg that I own. But sayang seribu kali sayang, its a small one. Doesnt fit my height at all. I remembered once I had to bend and squeeze myself inside the sleeping beg while camping at the peak of the mountain at Chemerong-Berembun-Lansir just to keep up the heat.. damn shivering badly even when I'm stuffed inside. The second one, which is the blue one, is a great one. Very tall sleeping bag with headrest. Bought it at Mydin (who says Mydin sell 2nd class stuffs. I love to shop there) and very satisfied with the overall quality.

Behind my tent is the 60-piece automotive emergency kit for emergency reason. Look what's below all these:

My spare tire. This has saved my life two times so far - one at Cyberjaya, while coming back from Friday Prayers and another one was waaaay back previously while going out with my ex. Was driving around town and suddenly we heard a short loud hissing sound.

" Ah Sudah !! "

Wild speculations from my mind was confirmed with the vehicle tilting on the left. It's like Titanic, but while travelling fast on the right lane. I stopped and eventually changed the tire in the middle of the road while giving everyone "I don't give a damn on what you're thinking" face.

My jumper set. Saved my life numerous times. I remembered that I have to jump my battery after camping at Frasers Hill.

Portable tire inflator. Not many people own this - nor realize the emergency need of this device. Saved my life while attending a camp at Segamat.

A first aid triangular bandage and the official Manual Pertolongan Cemas book. Both sponsored by PBSM while attending the Kursus Menyelamat dan Pertolongan Cemas recently. Very important tool for emergency cases. Book is read fortnightly to sharpen skills.

Favourite porch bag with a mini carabiner hanging there for my GPS unit. Lots of pockets for different needs.

Rain repellant by eBay. Very handy and useful.

No. Not an inch of what you'e thinking on your head. I don't smoke. These lighters are for emergency purposes and to start up fire while hiking.

What's wrong with some panadols around.

My favourite perfume. Azzaro Chrome. Used since secondary school times. Very exotic brand - can't find it cheap at uptowns and downtowns. Have to buy it original at Parkson for RM300-ish.

I love to keep reciepts when I buy things. Every single receipts, whether it is requested or provided without any form of after-sales communication. I love travelling, so most of the receipts here are the petrol receipts from various petrol stations.

And also, stationaries. Very useful for quick updates or if I have some ideas popped in the middle of journey.

I have a trip to Jerantut, Pahang tomorrow and to Chukai, Terengganu on the next day. Tomorrow's trip is under abg Suhail - a trip to Omey's house in Jerantut. He will dump me at the Jerantut bus station afterwards because he needs to rush to another place afterwards. Then I have to take a bus to Kuantan, and - Chukai for an impromptu visit to my cousin's house.

Looking forward for this weekend as I have a hiking and night trekking trip to Pine Tree Hill & Twin Peak and also a bird-watching session there. Frasers Hill, here I come!

anführen: motivational

“Bruce had me up to three miles a day, really at a good pace. We’d run the three miles in twenty-one or twenty-two minutes. Just under eight minutes a mile [Note: when running on his own in 1968, Lee would get his time down to six-and-a half minutes per mile].

So this morning he said to me “We’re going to go five.” I said, “Bruce, I can’t go five. I’m a helluva lot older than you are, and I can’t do five.” He said, “When we get to three, we’ll shift gears and it’s only two more and you’ll do it.” I said “Okay, hell, I’ll go for it.”

So we get to three, we go into the fourth mile and I’m okay for three or four minutes, and then I really begin to give out. I’m tired, my heart’s pounding, I can’t go any more and so I say to him, “Bruce if I run any more,” –and we’re still running-”if I run any more I’m liable to have a heart attack and die.” He said, “Then die.”

It made me so mad that I went the full five miles. Afterward I went to the shower and then I wanted to talk to him about it. I said, you know, “Why did you say that?”

He said, “Because you might as well be dead. Seriously, if you always put limits on what you can do, physical or anything else, it’ll spread over into the rest of your life. It’ll spread into your work, into your morality, into your entire being. There are no limits. There are plateaus, but you must not stay there, you must go beyond them. If it kills you, it kills you. A man must constantly exceed his level.”

- Bruce Lee

 

I don't know you anon. I don't know a thing about you. I don't know where you come from, where you are going or why you do what you do. I don't know if we'd get along if we met. But there's one thing that I know. You're capable of much more than you have been led to believe.

As I am writing this there are 6. 7 billion people walking and breathing on our humble rock. The overwhelming, vast majority of them will pass through 720,000 hours like a match struck in the wind. Hardly noticed, scarcely remembered.

Tomorrow, as you go about your day, take your time to look around. Are there a lot of people around? what do you see?  You see mediocrity. You see average. You see everything about yourself that you hate, that you fear, but that you have been conditioned to believe is acceptable. Fine. Enough. A good job.

I'm there to tell you that you will NOT settle for what is fine. You will not settle for a good job. Fine is for the loser. Fine is for the guy who skipped the last set of his workout because he just didn't feel like it. Fine is for the guy who cheated on his diet (this goes for you too, you skinny fuck) because he just couldn't do it anymore. Fine is for the guy who took a nap instead of sprinting around town in torrential downpour. Fine is for the guy who got the job but not the one he wanted.  The guy made second place. He has never embraced pain, personal sacrifice, or thrown himself into the fires of dedication. Most importantly, and starting today, this guy is NOT YOU.

You are not this person. You are destined for greatness. you have it inside of you, and you know it. You have always known it, you have felt it as a faint thumping in your gut. Its clawing, scratching, struggling to be set free. It needs your help. As long as you hold yourself to the standard of 'average', that is all you will ever be. In your dreams you arent average, so why the F*** are you settling for it now? What are you not doing right now, anon? What is eating at the back of your skull? Go do IT. You know what it is, solider. The time to act is now. You will  burn. You will suffer. Your demons will not be defeated easily. Every step of the way they will whisper in you ear that you aren't good enough. That you aren't meant to succeed. 'Just give up',they will mutter, 'You will never be the best'. 'NO', you will reply. You l embrace suffering. You will finish that last repetition. You will claw through the agonizing pain,  you will break boundaries. You will rise above the rest. You will realize your potential.

You, anon, are no average man. Now go do what you were destined to do. 

- Anon

mich

I don't like to blog actually, nor write anything either on a paper or a blog.. but I would like to start my blog with abit about myself in conjunction with the World Social Media Day, which falls on today.

As you know, I am currently working right now at HP Global Center, Cyberjaya. The word 'Global' itself represents that we are currently supporting people globally, and I assume that the environment will be vibrant and dynamic with people from around the world working together in an energetic campus but NO. All my expectations fumble in small pieces of hope (people working inside knows why).

I am surrounded by people not within my age range, in which their mentality and environment are based on their status as a committed working adult. I am actually stuck in a capsule where the people inside are not effectively communicate with each other, not socializing properly and mostly working as a lone ranger, not as a team. There's a huge gap and barrier between people here that keeps away mutual communication/full duplex communication. I am proud to announce that the perfect example would be my current team, the Ericsson R&D Service Desk.

So, because of that, I've become adapted with the environment. I have no proper friends who can I properly channel my frustration, anger nor concern. I normally navigate around alone. Every time I look behind, front, or on the left (I can't look on the right because its a wall), I see people focusing their eyeballs into the monitor aimlessly pretending to do work. I expected a smile, or a simple greeting, but it won't happen at this environment.

I had a chat with my teamlead yesterday, and he pointed a crucial side of me I always overlooked. Every time I communicate, or simply at work, I had the 'poker face' expression each and every time (poker face is a face without any interpretable expression), he had a difficulty to understand me. Yes, I admit that. Everytime I went out communicating with people, I always start with a poker face nowadays (or in popular language, IDGAF). This is one of the psychological example of the change I've endured here because of the environment. To be honest, I am not like this back then. I smile alot back then!

Seriously, I am not happy with the path I'm taking right now.

Also, to note that in all of my seriousness of dealing with things, I virtually do not have a bad temper. I rarely let loose my emotions into an extent of angrily yelling at people .Many of my friends would agree to this. I rarely raise my voice at people. I have a low voice. I also have a tendency of respecting pressure off people, as I do not put pressure on people and I do expect people to not pressure me.

I feel like living alone in this world.

I told countless number of my friends before - "People change". But here I am, with the byproduct of the environmental change. I am frustrated and not happy at the moment.

Einführung

First of all, welcome to my blog! Either you have wandered aimlessly on the internet and suddenly bumped into this blog or you have been forced to visit this blog, you are all most welcome. I don't have to introduce myself as you may have known me in real life. For those who doesn't know me: my name is Sid.

This blog is the continuation of my old blog (it still lives, nicely archived by blogger and can be accessed via a specific link. it contains my absolute moronic past) in which I have started long time ago. I have to stop writing, mainly because of time constraint and some personal issues.

I have left the writing world for so long, even now I can see effects of it within myself. My English competency is slowly going into drain. I realized this long time ago, and I have ignored it since until today. That, sir, is my biggest mistake in my life (yet).

I have decided to name my blog volzify after a non-existing english word that is only defined in urbandictionary.com

volzify: To take an otherwise simple task/idea and overcomplicate it to the point of an almost impossibility.

I will use this blog as my personal blog, so take this as a warning if you suddenly encounter heart problems or distinctive/delusional behaviours as you read my jargons. Take note that I am a participant of Anugerah Remaja Perdana and the International Award for Young People, Gold Award (highest award for youth in Malaysia and world, respectively) so I will use my blog as the logbook for ARP for the young generation to ponder and to be inspired by my idiocy.

In the meantime, I will make some changes on the blog as time flies before finalizing the template.

Second of all, I would like to introduce to you guys my new domain name: http://s1d.my. Previously I have slashstream.net as my domain, but I do not have proper budget to renew the domain as I was a massive idiot back then to buy a domain name without any plan to extend it. This domain will open up new opportunities for the Internet to observe my absolute idiocy.

Great thanks for spending 5 minutes to read this piece of nonsense. Many will come, be patient.
Goodbye for now.